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I'm really trying lately to be more positive even though I always considered myself an optimist, I tend to get annoyed, and negative quickly. Lately though that's not the case, but I know I have a long way to go before I reach my goals. For awhile I've felt that I'm at an odd place in my life career wise. Then I wonder once I reach my goals what's next? When I have everything I want, what's after that? I know I'm getting ahead of myself, but I'm so confident, secure, and I trust myself and my abilities that I can't help but think.  What am I rushing for? Yes I want my goals but am I rushing? Sometimes I think so, other times I think I'm moving too slow. Once I get everything I want and I'm happier, I'm not sure what's after that.    INS                    |            OUTS                       - for sep2025       ...

 I guess trying your best does include pushing yourself a bit... I want to be kinder to myself while having self discipline. It's weird, I'm trying to get a balance of both, but it's difficult. 

Lately I've been thinking about my life...well for awhile now I've been doing some reflecting on myself and what's going on. Today was different though, I wanted to talk to my mom and let her know what I want for myself, what my goals are, and how I'm feeling. I find it hard to talk to my family about any hardships I have / my feelings overall. While I do enjoy my clinic job, I don't want to be there for long. My past jobs I've always felt burnt out around the 2 year mark. This time around I want to be there max 1 year. I picture myself doing what I studied for full time, with loads of money coming in mwehe.  GOOD LUCK TO ME!

 I'm not sure how I let a whole month go by where I didn't say something...I must get better at this. I do journal more than I blog though. Life has been interesting, difficult, but also really fun and beautiful, change is coming again and I'm excited.    INS                    |            OUTS                       - for aug2025                                  -  matcha from dunkin                                                        -  being the victim                                  -  being kind  ...

 i can't wait to get back into lovelyverse, i just love creating. 

 I have not 1, not 2, but 3 job interviews tomorrow! I'm not sure about the 3rd one though.  Like what am I supposed to make of this, they have yet to view my message, not even a "I look forward to seeing you", this for real the job market. In other news, I have been having some family issues and I am quite stressed but ya ni modo. Life goes on. I have hope for tomorrow (I always have hope). All I can do is try my best.